Phoebe

When I got home I snuck up to Phoebe's room and just started looking around. When I woke her up she was so excited to see me and she threw her arms around my neck. While we were talking I told her about the broken pieces and she just said "Gimme the pieces. I'm saving them." While we were talking it finally hit Phoebe that I was home early and she began to think that I got kicked out of school. She told me that dad was going to kill me and I just told her everything was going to be fine along with my master plan. I decided that I was going to move out to a ranch in Colorado and work and live out there. Phoebe was so disgusted with my plan that she covered her head with her pillow and wouldn't take it off. Once I got her to take off the pillow she started asking me why I got the axe from Pencey. I told her everyone there was a phony and I got sick of them but she just told me I didn't like anyone. So I gave her a list of all the people I liked. My list consisted of her of course, Allie, and James Castle. James was this kid who jumped out a window after some kids did some repulsive things to him. Then she started talking to me about what I wanted to do when I got older. I just told her that I keep picturing all these little kids playing some game in this big field of rye and all. Thousands of little kids, and nobody's around – nobody big, I mean – except me. And I'm standing on the edge of some crazy cliff. What I have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff – I mean if they're running, and they don't look where they're going I have to come out from somewhere and catch them. That's all I'd do all day. I'd just be the catcher in the rye and all. I know it's crazy, but that's the only thing I'd really like to be. After that we danced for awhile to the radio when all of the sudden my mother burst through the door. I shoved myself in the closet until she finally left. When I came out of the closet I asked Phoebe for some money and she gave me all of her Christmas money. That was it for me. I lost it and just started bawling. When I finally left my house that night I went to Mr. Antolini's house. He was an old English teacher at Elkton Hills. Mr. Antolini was the teacher that covered up and carried James Castle to the infirmary after he jumped out of that window. He wanted to talk to me about my classes, I just told him that I passed my English class and left it at that. Then the man started telling me about how he had lunch with my father not too long ago and both of them were worried about me. I felt another lecture coming on at this point. But I don't want to talk about them anymore. Nothing really worth blogging about really happened except I woke up to him petting my head. When something perverted like that happens, I start sweating like a bastard. After that I got the hell out of there. That is all you really need to know about that. The next day I finally had a happy moment. Instead of telling you about more depressing garbage I am just going to tell you about that moment. It was when Phoebe was riding the carousel. I started to cry watching her. And that was the end of my happy times, for now at least.